::..sAYinG It oUT LOuD..::

monitorlizzie

(Langkawi 12 November 08)

monitorlizzie

"So, do you like clubbing, dancing and all?"

"Nope, I'm not really into clubbing"

"Have you gone clubbing before? Or are you still underaged?"

"Nah, not underaged. Just that I prefer bars and not-so-noisy lounges."

"Your mum when she was younger used to love clubs and dancing. You're so different!"

"Yeah, I know. I'm so different!"

While it's not new info about my Mum, it's still kinda weird to know that my Mum's cooler than her daughter. Haha.

Will update on Langkawi pictures soon. I hope.

itsissykrutt

i'm sitting in my cosy little bedroom. it's dark outside, and the serene blue-ness of the walls and the bedsheet complements the gloom as the sky outside fades into a bleak bleak gray. i light a small candle, surround it with pieces of pot pourri rest it on the table, get comfy with a bowl of cut oranges in my lap..

..all in the attempt to get this BLOODY FLU AWAY FROM ME!

for the love of God seriously..it's been six days since i came back. i should already be getting used to the cat fur-thick air and cat fur-infested carpets by now. i'm sneezing like the walls might come crumbling down. mum went flabbergasted this morning discovering we're out of loo rolls obviously i used them all up. i took one pink flu pill last two nights and died while ym-ing with nutella and msn-ing with my sayang. poor baby, i'm always dozing off on him..

and now that i'm finally back home, i miss shah alam. i'm so lonely here it's not funny =(. my sister's busy being all emo and self-pitying for spm. i get along with my brother most of the time, that is when he's not being such a pussy throwing tantrums being an insufferable pain. i don't get why he likes to pick fights with mum all the time. dude needs anti-angst treatment.

i haven't been out of the house since i came back. that was last saturday. truth is, i miss my housemates back in shah alam now. i feel LONELY, you tend to miss people when you're lonely. i'm always online waiting for people to talk to. maybe, i should stop being so self-important and should start asking how people are first instead of waiting for them to call me. oh revelation..

this semester break though, i think i'm doing some self-rediscovery. finding fortes i have lost, doing things i used to be good at -most i suck at now. do some soul-searching and retrieving bits of me i have misplaced. sit down and be grateful for the blessings i have been given instead of lamenting every single Goddamned thing at the top of my head. so what if i have to repeat my bloody thermodynamics course. not the end of the world. my glass is half-full, that way, i can learn to treasure the contents inside more now that i only have some but not all of them.

bare with the long post please will you, i  haven't been writing since the ice age..

what i really want to talk about minus all those BS up there i was just warming up really, is that as simple and bland my life may be these days, i have that one reason always makes me feel like a princess..every..time.

never have i been in love as much as this before, and just the thought of this seems way too overwhelming. should the distance or you being so ANNOYINGLY busy these days make me feel any less, it's not working?! XD you make me feel like i want to go to you on the next flight to strangle you for being so psychotic over work and exams that our conversations are cut short, but smother you with hugs and kisses because i miss you even more insanely when i get less of you these days..

it's amazing how much i need you.

it's amazing still how i fall in love with you over and over like it's the first time for me each time, with everything you say and do. i'll wake up a complete mess in the morning but still feel like a star knowing you'll love me however disgusting i look anyway. i love it how you can adore me for being so ordinary. whatever i have that you can venerate me so much is beyond me..

and i miss how warm your felt. i miss being able to just grab your hand and cling onto your arm when i'm out of things to say. then your warmth fills me so deliciously and there i am silent as ever, savouring it. =)

i miss you when we talk on the phone. because as soon as i pick up, i know i'd have to hang up half-an-hour later because you'd have to go back to studying or to bed because you have an early class the next day. i miss hearing your voice trying to sound like you need me there right at that very moment and just hold you and never leave.

i hate manipal for taking you away from me and it looks like the bitch wants to keep you all to herself like this..grrr. but then missing you everyday reminds me that i'm not about to stop loving and wanting you yet. and thats a good thing right? =)

i'm so sorry for being all disgustingly mushy like this. i bet you're all embarassed towards everyone who reads this now. but then again..YOU ASKED FOR IT KAN??

hehehehehe HAPPY 3RD MONTH ANNIVERSARY SAYANG! 3rd uncelebrated anniversary but still.. I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOUUUUUUU!!...

<3

itsissykrutt

Rules of the tag:- Link to your tagger and post these rules in your blog. Share 7 facts about yourself on your blog, some random, some weird. Tag 7 people at the end of your post by leaving their names as well as links to their blogs. Let them know they are tagged by leaving a comment on their blog.

1. i just found out my addiction to ice is actually a medical condition and it has a NAME.. it's called pagophagia which is a form of pica which is the addiction to consuming nonsensical things.. (like soil, wood, flour..) and is a sign of malnutrition. in my case, iron-deficiency. yes i am actually very fascinated by this ergo i sound gloating don't i.. XD

2. i LOOOOooove watching thomas the tank engine and friends on playhouse disney. 3pm, and 6pm everyday. i especially loooove the sing-a-long at the end. wanna hear me sing it?! AHEM they're two they're four they're six they're eight. shunting cars and hauling freights. red and green and brown and blue. they're the Really Useful Crew! all with different roles to play, round Tidmouth sheds or far away. round the hills and round the bends..thomas and his friends!!   =D

3. i like ikea. i like going there just to walk through the place, 'sight-seeing', go into every small room there is, getting lost, being found, see what new toys there are, see everything colourful and spritely, and coming out with one tiny and cheap little something because i-didnt-come-to-shop-but-this-is-just-too-cute. go get me an ikea hotdog with rashings and the cheap ikea icecream, or stuff myself with meatballs and cranberry sauce and a baked potato. just for the sake of it. =)

4. i like hats. i think i shall invest my savings on all kinds of hats from now on..

5. i shall work for, say..6 years after i graduate, get bored, quit, spend all of my husband's money and wear him out.. oh and do lots of charity and philantropic..stuff because the money seems to never run out.. =D

6. i wish i have flawless skin, tight arse, and long silkier hair.. don't we all? =(

7. i believe my zarul is one of the best things that has ever happened to me because he won't mind about fact #5, and despite i have none of those under #6, he still loves me more than anything else.. right baby?? =)

i taggeth..

1. tot
2. hanna
3. eza
4. sufi
5. mia
6. chep
7. sape-sape la..

it's been a while since i posted an entry that was light hearted and (hopefully) somewhat amusing. i've been really bogged down with life. but today, something really made me laugh and i thought that i would share it here.

so you know all those social networking sites? a few examples are "facebook" and "friendster". i know, i know. who doesn't know or at least haven't heard of them right? but here's my interesting observation. all these sites give the user the option of displaying a "profile pic". and from here, i can see the sheer creativity of my friends/acquitances.

This is my friendster friend page. as you can see from the profile pics, many of them are "full face" shots. now, in my humble opinion, there is absolutely nothing wrong with this. absolutely nothing. but when i first heard of profile pictures, i thought of this:

you know, the basic passport photo shot. plain background. no smile. the simplest and unadulterated shot of one's face that one could possibly get.

but then, i notice that some people get really creative. and this is where i start grouping the profile pictures.

ones like this i entitle "with significant other":

ok, maybe not as deranged as the shot above, but you get my drift. The picture is taken really close to one and one's significant other's face, due to the fact that the picture was taken by either one of them holding the camera away at arms length. you all have seen these shots, and these shots were usually preceded by the ever proclaiming "*insert name here* has gone from "single" to "in a relationship"" of facebook noticiations.

pictures like this i like to call "gazing at a weird angle" or "nothing"

pictures like this i call "devoid of color"

pictures like this are sometimes taken black and white in a studio with a slight haze on the picture to make it appear fuzzy with the subject wearing a lot of makeup and some fancy clothes. as i am too lazy to apply the haze and the make-up, you will just have to imagine the effect, but i'm sure you've seen these pictures.

as of now, i'm too lazy to describe all the other categories, but open up your own social networking page (don't deny you have one) and see for yourself. ah, the joys of facebook.

so i listen to a lot of music and some people might say that i listen to more than is probably good for me. Occasionally i hear a really good song that makes me stop whatever i'm doing and just enjoy the lyrics. the other day at work i was listening to pandora, which i do just to fill the silence, and i heard "when i'm gone" by eminem. the chorus goes something like this:

And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling
And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel no pain
Just smile back
And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling
And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel no pain
Just smile back...

the lyrics flow really well and no matter what people say about eminem, one thing is clear: he really loves his daughter. and anyone who loves their child so much can't be all that bad.

on a different note, James Bond was a disappointment. i wasn't really expecting much to begin with, but it was a real let down even at that low level of expectation. it doesn't get my endorsement but hey, judi dench is always a joy to watch.

also, i'll be doing my annual chelsea tribute soon, due to the fact that we are topping the table. and:

Carefree, wherever we may be,

We are the famous CFC,

And we don't give a ****

Whoever you may be,

'Cos we are the famous CFC

Come on Chelsea!

And she moves out.

Monash Condo and Lagoonview both have been my home for 3 years. Sometimes, it seems more of home than my actual home. It's so surreal that 3 years went fleeting just like that, and now I'm moving out and back to living out my suitcase (and boxes). I can't believe I'd actually miss this place, which many of us initially hated so much. We thought it was boring, dead and expensive (as compared to SS15 where I was residing previously). 3 years of Aeon Flux and now I don't wanna leave so soon. Typical Michy no? Always getting so attached to stuff.

But well, goodbye Sunway. It has been an extremely good 3 years.

I'll be back before anyone even realises it. (To be exact, I won't be back in Ipoh yet, and I'll be back here in about a week's time).

*Why are the songs all so emo today? =( *

monitorlizzie

Dragon-i, weekly cinema movies, good Jap food (Sakae and Zanmai), and Republic - I will miss all these.