::..sAYinG It oUT LOuD..::

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As of 12.30 pm today, I could finally breathe normally again. Yep, yep, assignments are done and over with. Good riddance! The only other obstacle left is tomorrow's mid term. Bar list is up, results of people changing their majors are going to be out, and I'm approaching my study break in two weeks time. And then 1st paper's on the 24th (Web Page Design) and Finance will be on the 26th (hopefully) And then hopefully I can go back either on the 27th or the 26th itself and hopefully I'll be able to go to MGS' Pesta Ria...

These past few weeks had been tough. There were times when I was so much in a bad mood that it affected everyone around (not the best feeling btw) and there were times when just the tiniest of mistakes can make me snap. I would blame it on stress but then again, the feeling's kinda staying.

I don't know, sometimes I feel so tired. Of everything. Of PJ, of UTAR, of my course, of people, of studying....

Then I realised that if I don't study, what would I be doing?! Work? Hah! Get married?! DOUBLE hah!

But still, there were still times when I laughed like I've never laughed before ;

~ When my parents got me a new handbag.
~ When I was persuading Pei Wen to go up first for our presentation cause nobody volunteered. But he refused. So we drew lots and surprise, surprise, PEI WEN got first.
~ Or when we were assembled to take pictures with Mr Goh(he's leaving) at the garden in front of PD. Since there were flag poles there, Pei Wen stood there and pretended like he was flying the Jalur Gemilang and the rest of the class stood in front of him and started singing the national anthem. Also when he stood up on the small podium reciting his school's oath, and then Sze Yi took his turn and then me(though I only got halfway...)
~ And when Mr Boo did a stripper pose and wrapped himself around the flag pole.
~ Or when Sze Yi's Web Page Design text book kept falling down in class. The book fell down more than three times in one class.
~ And when Bee Bee turned around and asked Kelvin outright "Why didn't Mr Lau call your name? How come you're not barred? You've been absent so many times"
~ Also when Tim told Mr Lau he couldn't sit in front because he is "colour blind" and his specs has these "RGB values"
~ Or when Balan showed me a picture of this extremely cute Persian kitten....

So, yeah, they put up with my crap for the last few weeks or so. And they're ever so patient with me that sometimes I think it's a blessing to have these people as my friends. For putting up with me and my foul moods, thank you guys!

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Zi Yun : I like Bluebear and also Pinkbear. They're a couple you know.
Me : Huh?!
Zi Yun : *showing me the pics of said Bluebear* There, see, very cute.
Me : It's a guy bear right?
Zi Yun : Yes
Me : Then why does it have a flower behind the ear?!
Zi Yun : ...because it's gay?!
Sze Yi : Care Bears are gay...
Me : *gasps* Nooooo!
Sze Yi : I heard someone saying that...
Me : Care Bears are not gay..They're, urm, soft.

Oh yeah, the joys of finishing our final midterm(technically, it's not a midterm as we're already in our second last week of sem) of the sem..

Anyhoo, went with Zi Yun and her friend to Amcorp to meet up with my mum and sister. Parents came down to PJ cause the father had to attend a one - day seminar. My mum decided to come along because the brother has fled off to Perlis on his bike with our cousin, Alan to visit another cousin, Faiz (biaselah, budak - budak baru habis SPM). They'll only be going back to Kulim(uncle's place) tomorrow and God knows when he's ever coming back to Ipoh...

It was a girls day out cause we went shopping. Well, my mum and sister did. They bought these identical purses for reasons only known to them and I bought....a belt. How fascinating.

Got back to the hotel, Crystal Crown btw and I heard news about this cousin of mine (okay, I was trying to eavesdrop but I only got bits and pieces and then my sister supplied the whole story)Ammar who got selected for the JPA interview and is going for the UTP interview next week, I think. Anytheway, he wants take up architecture, his mum wants him to read law and I want him to read law too (so that he can apply to the UIA matrix and teman me here. Haha) So now, if he takes up architecture, our family is finally breaking out of its engineers and bankers mould (my mum's side, bankers, the daddy's side, engineers)So far, only yours truly and another cousin of mine has broken the circle. And now Ammar and probably my brother (if he does take up catering)might join us too. Wheeee~! LOL.

Then, while I was watching Spongebob and laughing at my sister for placing the praying mat in the totally opposite direction of the indicator, the daddy came back with a new Iskraemeco..pen. For me. *smacks forehead*

OOOOOOOHHHHHHHH, the sister is going to go to a "Kursus Kahwin" organised by her uni! Ahahahahahahahahahaha! Is this a sign?! Hurrrmmm....

My sister : *asking for money for the course* Papa, RM30 please.
Papa : Gimme RM20.
My sister : *confused* Huh?! Why?
Me : Ala, papa nak bagi RM50 la tuh...
Mama : Entahnyer, slow la Kak Long nih.
Papa : Dia kan "popeye"
Me & Mama : *LAMPI laaaaa!

*[ A few years back, Peoy, who was taught by her brother, taught me this word which is actually a combination of 2 words, "Lambat Pickup" aka slow aka blur. And I used to call my dad "Lampi" cause he tends to get a bit blur at times. And now, he uses it back on us]

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After Web Page Design lecture;

Shwu Zhen : CT, skipping class?
Me : Yep.
Shwu Zhen : Why?
Me : Because I've never skipped before. So you can't scold me..

By this time, everyone was assembled in front of me, some looking shocked that I would do something "bad" as skipping my class( I felt a tad insulted actually...)

Pei Wen : But if you don't go, who's gonna supply the answers?
Me : *grins* And now I know where I stand in your life....

Of course I felt a wee bit guilty about skipping class. I think God somehow left out the sometimes-skipping-classes-are-okay screw when He created me.

Oh well, I was exhausted and I knew if I entered Ms Foo's class, I would be a million miles away from Earth. Maybe it's woman's problem or maybe it was because I was pigging out for the whole day(I ate fried rice for lunch. And then I entered class, and instantly popped a grape flavoured Mentos and then a few Skittles and a few sticks of Rocky)

...Oh and I lost 6 kilos.

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Haven't done this for quite some time...

This goes out to Maha Dai,

~ Happy 20th Birthday dearest! ~

God bless you now and always!

*hugs*

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Today marks the last day of TB12.

And I'm kinda emotional about it.

At first, I didn't really think of it as being the end of TB12. But then I received an SMS from Mr Boo thanking us for the fun and laughter and tears and tantrums and "insults" he had over the past year. And then it really hit me that this is the end.

Don't even try telling me to be optimistic, that we'll see each other etc. Realistically, we won't. Being in the same building and all, it doesn't mean we'll see each other. I'll hate it if we only get to be the hi-and-bye type of friends after all the memories we had.

I mean, these are the people I have grown to know and be fond of. They're practically my family here in PJ. I turned to them when problems arise. I depended on them when I needed someone to cheer me up. And I looked up to them when I needed a boost.

I know we have to move on. Somewhere it's written that we have to go our separate ways and if luck has it, we'll get together again.

I just wish it doesn't have to feel like this...

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The weather's absolutely gorgeous! I just wanna sleep today...

Went to PD today for our "revision" class but it was a total waste of time because ;

1) It was a one hour session
2) Mr Lau practically told us to read up on the whole syllabus..And that was about it. Revision indeed..

Before the class, went to the Faculty Office to ask about our exam schedule. Initially, our first paper was scheduled to be on the 23rd. Then they brought it forward to the 21st. And then yesterday, there were rumours about it being pushed back to the 23rd again.

Went into the office, luckily it was the Malay guy so it made the whole ordeal easier. (Fyi, the office people are infamously known for their rudeness except for this guy and another lady. So, getting this guy to answer my queries is super good)Though I nearly fought with him about the schedule (He confidently told me that the paper was never brought forward in the first place. I contradicted him and told him about the notice posted on the notice boards but he was still adamant) Then I went out to the foyer and the new notice was just being posted. Nasib baik the abang is super nice, if not, sure bertekak with him wannn..Tsk.

Then lined up to wait for our exam slip. Again, the guy was manning the counter that I was supposed to go to. Chatted with him for a bit. Turns out he's from Ipoh too. So, kinda nice meeting up with another (quoting Balan)"kawan sekampung."

Kinda surprised that UTAR actually released our slips this early. Usually, it takes them forever to release them thus creating much not needed trouble for students who plan to go back to their hometowns for study week.

Anyhoo, stayed back at the campus for a bit. Just to check out the atmosphere and mainly just to eat for one last time before moving to PC(where the food suck, so we heard...) The campus was bustling with activities. Students were lining up to get their slips. The lady who was manning the A-L counter was up to her head with the number of students lining up in front of her. But the Malay guy who was manning the M-Z counter, was just sitting idly, actually waiting for students to come up to him. Of course Bee Bee and yours truly got our slips extra extra extra fast. Sze Yi and Mr Boo had to wait for a bit..

Me : Got ours already! See, good things happen to good people. You're  nasty, so you have to wait longer.It's called karma babes.LOL.
Sze Yi : Actually, I think karma is hitting her, not me. I mean, you know how terribly rude she is to the students, so somehow God gave her a longer line...*evil laughter*

And then, in front of the foyer, at the parking lot, there was a bunch of students from Stream B, washing, scrubbing, polishing and waxing the lecturers' and tutors' cars.

Oh well, time to say goodbye. Goodbye PD. Goodbye to the mamak stall across the road. Goodbye to the guards who are always seen patrolling the gorunds, protecting us. Goodbye the flag poles where Balan and I had to pose as lovers in the first semester. Goodbye the computer labs where I used to curse the computers for being extremely slow. And goodbye to the building itself for housing us and our memories throughout the past year..

Geez, awfully emo lately. Wonder why....

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I am very fortunate to be born in a family that judge people by their personality and not their colour. The most that they will worry about when I am at my non - muslim friends houses would be if the food were halal. And of course they'll be halal. My friends know about my religion and they don't judge me because of it.

I don't care who my friends are. I don't care what colour they are. I don't really care who is around me. Heck, throw me into the ocean and see me befriend the fishes. Fact is, they are my friends. They are the ones I depend on when my family's not around. I count on them on a daily basis.

The question is, why does racism exist?

Why is it SO wrong when a person from other race helps people from other race? I don't see the problem...The bottom line is, there ARE people who actually cares in THIS world where people are being attacked left, right and center for all kinds of stupid reasons.

And yet, there's this idiot who is apparently called "Melayu Jati" who thinks that no such person exist. That people who help others because they care simply doesn't exist anymore.

Marina Mahathir's right. If that's how "Melayu Jati" acts, I don't wanna be a Malay. In fact, from now on, I am A MALAYSIAN. Ask me what race I am and THAT will be my answer.

[Note : To read what this so - called "Melayu Jati" actually wrote, go to Marina Mahathir's blog at http://rantingsbymm.blogspot.com]

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Things I have learnt over the past couple of days.

1) Paranoia is terribly dangerous.

2) Some people were put on this earth with a sole purpose which is to annoy. So the next time I meet this kind of people I'll (a)calmly turn around and walk in the other direction or (b)pretend that he/she is totally invisible or (c)develop a temporary hearing impairment.

 3) You can't run from your troubles. The more you run, the faster they catch up. Not until you confront them will you be able to get rid of them once and for all.

4) Even the hardest and coldest of hearts can melt.

5) Everyone's a hypocrite. One way or another. Even those who admit to not being one.

6) Sometimes when you think that no one cares enough to stand by you, there will always be someone right by your side. And most of the time, it is someone totally unexpected.

7) When you stop having faith in yourself, others will too.

8) Sometimes, real friends are there, right in front of you. Only you have been blinded by other fake and pretentious ones to take notice.

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In 17 hours and approx. 19 minutes, I will be sitting down for my second and last paper.

Though I should be concentrating all of my energy and focus on that paper, I am not or I can't.

Mainly because my brain has decided to leave me. Well, a portion of it at least. That portion of my brain is safely in Ipoh and it will not come back no matter how hard I will for it.

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Okay, I watched Shooter with my dad (since no one else in the house was interested) and I have to say this, Bob Lee Swagger? Bob. Lee. Swagger?

Are you friggin’ kidding me?

If I am the President of some country(which will be very much unlikely. Imagine me running a country….)I would very much like to be protected by a Michael or a Dylan or even a Robert would be nice. Bob Lee Swagger just sounds so country bumpkin – ish.

Me as President of CTopia : Get me my Chief of Security, Bob Lee Swagger…

Okay, it doesn’t really shout “Hotshot Sniper”..

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Pesta Ria on Saturday was a blast! Not the event, the meet ups.

I don’t know, the stalls were not that appealing actually.

But met up with a few of my nearly – forgotten monkeys like Shen Ly and Charis (I hunted them down, actually) and Small Beh in, get this, a CLOWN SUIT! Semangat betul the Head Prefect yerr..LOL.

And then my darling mentee Tsuey – ness. She cut her hair and she looks even more cute! And then there was Anna and Sze Yin. Truth be told, I nearly forgot most of their names. Except for the few that I reeaaalllyy know.

And then there were Pn Siva and Pn Cheah. And Ms Azana who gave Ime and I a quite brilliant sales pitch to make us buy her float. And then Cik Safinash, my former Handball Club teacher advisor. Didn’t see CCL though which was quite a bummer.

And theeeennnn, the most exciting part of the day would beeeee meeting MY BABES!!!! See, I, finally, got to meet Kae and really ask her about Jacky, and Kar Mun, and Siew Sin, and Yoke Mun whom, I think, is the only other person in Malaysia that is harder to meet up with other than Pak Lah himself (which reminds me, Tronoh tuh susah dapat line ker? I mean, everytime we SMS her, she will only reply like a few days later. Once, she took a week to answer Chennie’s SMS). Oh, and there was also Chennie, although I see her in MC every other week, Mia, and Ummu and Ber, Ime, Geeta and Bal. And Yoke Mun and I(Yoke Mun claimed she is my lesbian partner…Oh. My. God!) welcomed a new family member aka our son – in - law, Karthiban, Geeta’s new boyfriend. Now, I’m just waiting for my stepdaughter (Ber) to get married.

The day was indescribable. Getting together and catching up with your friends is THE best thing that you can do, EVER! We found out everything (well, almost) there is to know about Karthiban, and then Baldep announced she got “married” to this HOT guy in her college. And Mun invited us over to her house for her brother’s wedding this August (or was it October?!..)and why Mia is not talking to her “poster boy”, and how Ime finally found her future husband in Billy Martin…*rollseyes*

Some time in the middle of all the laughing and telling stories, Geeta called Caryn and I don’t know if it was the whole stress – over - MUET talking or she just had somehow forgotten about us, she mistook Mun for me and me for Ime and then Fairuz….

You know guys, we should do this more often. We should make it a ritual…