::..sAYinG It oUT LOuD..::

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Execution by electric chairs should be abolished. I can't imagine having my brains fried to a crisp. I can't even look at the chair. It's scary. Too scary.

The noose and lethal injection can stay.

I mean, when i die, i want to die peacefully. No shocks. Not surprisingly.

It wouldn't be fair to everybody else that i would leave behind. It wouldn't be fair to me.

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Heard about Peoy's grandmum. Made me think of my grandad.

I didn't cry at his funeral. Nor anyone else's yet.

I've never admitted this to anyone before.

I remembered i couldn't cry at his funeral while everyone else was sobbing their hearts out. I felt so out of place.

I remembered thinking they must think i'm a heartless bitch. Maybe I am.

But i do miss him. After the funeral.

I dreamt of him.

My mum and grandma said i am like him, in most ways.

My granddad was a marine. My mum always told me that when she was younger, the only one who was brave enough to test his patience would be my uncle.

My granddad used to take naps in the afternoon, and when i was younger, my mum said i used to wake him up in the middle of his naps. Funnily enough, he didn't mind.

I couldn't remember that. The only memory i have of him, is when he took my cousin and i to a dinosaur fair. I begged, sulked and cried to go to that fair.

Only to end up crying at the entrance cause it was too dark and creepy.

I remembered him picking me up and carrying me on his shoulders.

Sadly, i only knew who he was after his funeral. When my grandmum was packing his things. She showed me some pictures of him and told me stories about him.

It's weird sometimes, even now, to go back to penang and not see him sitting on his favourite chair watching the news.

Or not see him putting the kuih raya in the jars.

I could never bring myself to go to his grave. I don't know what's holding me back.

Fear?!

Maybe the fact that it serves as a reminder that my granddad is not around...

Yeah, it may be that.

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Kids in Heelies should be banned from shopping malls. Especially at peak hours.

Actually, kids should be banned from shopping malls. PERIOD.

I like kids, but sometimes they get on your nerves you just want to spank them. Or wish their parents would tie them around the waist with bungee cords, so that if they stray too far away, one tug will get them back. Or one push, depending which side you're on.

People who chose to window shop at peak hours should be banned from shopping malls too.

I don't need a bunch of girls ooh-ing and aah-ing at things they can' or won't buy.

Do it before lunch time, before it gets packed with people busy trying to shop for supplies.

Nuff said.

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I declare today and tomorrow as a mourning period. AMERICANS ARE STUPID FOR VOTING CHRIS DAUGHTRY OF IDOLS!

Radical, sue me...

McPheever my ass!

I'm not usually an Idol fan, but this season, I'M ADDICTED TO IT!

So many singers to condemn and worship. They kept me busy.

Ahh, at least Elliott's still in. BOO-YAH!

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Random things. Read it, don't read it. See if i care.

1) I keep thinking like i've something to do and somewhere to go tomorrow. But i don't.

2) Dr Drakken is my FAHHVOURITE VILLAIN!..lame squared squared squared......squared.

3) Andrew Firestone is the hottest millionaire around! Millionaires shouldn't be allowed to be a brunette with blue eyes and a very cheeky grin! Swear to God, if he is in Malaysia, I would hunt him down!

4) I shall be deprived of Jensen Ackles starting from next week, so i'll be watching Supernatural again tonight. And Devour.

5) I will be missing the World Cup. No sweaty boys in shorts for me then. Shyte! Unless.....I start hanging out with boys at UTAR and join them when they watch the Cup.

6) Some names should be banned from being said in front of me. Just because I get all nervous everytime i hear them.

7) Flirting is fun. An adrenaline rush you just can't get anywhere.

8) There should be a guide book on Crushes. And First Love. And Flirting.

9) Westlife will be on TV in 8 hours.SUH-WEET!

10) If i could change my nationality, i'd apply to be an American. My first choice was Ireland but since Mark's gay, no point in living there.

11) The South African accent is sexy...*swoons*

12) Patrick, my Ipod, screwed me, big time! Patrick has since been sent to Apple HQ to be repaired and will stay there until he's fully recovered. Which is definitely not before i leave. Stewpid.

13) I'm trying to be ignorant. Well, a little bit more ignorant. Just because it's simpler that way.

14) Someone's being too preachy for his age. I wish i could stuff his mouth with sambal belacan.

15) Sometimes it's fun doing silly things. Who am I kidding? It's ALWAYS fun doing silly things, it should be mandatory!

16) Social science is fabulous, well, it looks like it is. We should be able to experience the Marriage Project too. But coming from an all-girls school, it wouldn't change anything if the Ministry decided to force the subject down our throats. So, scrape it!

17) I should be given an award for watching too much TV. And knowing what's on next. I should!

18) I hate Koko Krunch. They hurt.

19) Eric and Jeremy should win The Amazing Race! Because they're real monkeys, jerks, dolts, nitwits dan yang sewaktu dengannya. You name it.

20) I need to know someone who can make excellent coffee. Fast.

21) I plan to use the stairs to get to and from my room to the lobby so that i can lose weight. (Cue laugh. Me, not you) Or get a weight - lifter boyfriend to carry me around. Whichever comes first.

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Eve of Registration day - 17/5

Spent the night at Armada Hotel. MUST SPENT MY LAST DAY IN AS MUCH LUXURY AS POSSIBLE!

Registration day - 18/5

Orientation was HELL! Imagine there were 2000+ Foundation Studies students and a few hundreds Bachelor Degrees students. and they only opened a counter EACH for each foundation studies which i daresay is very stupid! We had to stand there for at least an hour before they finally opened the other counters to the Foundation in Arts students which left the Foundation in Science standing for 3 hours or so. SUH-WEET!

Then we had the Mass Call and Welcoming Ceremony. The President's speech was boooorrrinnnggg! Just imagine Mr Thevadass speaking only the words comes 15 seconds later.

 Met Li Pei! And Chen's here at Millennium Court. It's very comforting to have a familiar face around.

Second day - 19/5

Soft Skills workshop. One word: Boring! The woman took at least 45 minutes to get to her point which by that time was useless because almost everyone who sat at the door slipped out.

Third day - 20/5

Got my tutorial groupings and schedules. Classes starting on Monday! Kind of excited! This semester, i'll be taking Principles of Economics, Introduction to Accounting, Introduction to Arts, Computer Studies, Public Speaking and Communications and English.

Then went for ice breaking and telematch. I got the chance to wet my tutorial groupmate. I threw a balloon filled with water, he couldn't catch it and got drenched. Plus, he was wearing a white t-shirt AND he has a very nice body. DOUBLE SUH-WEET!  Sorry Asyiq! Haha.

Got back to MC. Met a cute guy in the elevator. Talked to him for a bit. Got me delirious. Nuff said!

p/s: I'm declaring tomorrow as a mourning period cause Elliott Yamin got the boot! Sheesh!

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Studies commenced today. YEY!..

First lecture began with us disagreeing with the lecturer about our tutorials. It seems someone has spread the news that all tutorials are cancelled for the week and my lecturer denied having heard the news and insisted on having the tutorials anyway.

Only soon did we find out that all tutorials were indeed cancelled except for Computer Studies. Seems my lecturer’s right after all.

Arguing with the lecturers. A VERY good way to start the year people!

Oh and it’s better if you know who are your lecturers. Because while Bee Chin was searching for the entrance to PD Block, I asked a guy for directions. He showed us all the way in to the lecture room. When I sat down, Bee Chin said:

Bee Chin : The guy’s name is Anthony right?

Me: Yes. Why?

Bee Chin : Isn’t our Econs lecturer’s name’s Anthony? What if that was him? We have his lecture today, you know. What if he recognizes you? DIE LA YOU! *laughs hysterically*

Me : *starts panicking*

Then, my Computer Studies lecturer, Miss Amelia came in and started fiddling with her OHP for 15 minutes. Not that I was paying attention to her much cause I was too busy panicking.

After what seems an eons later, she started talking with this very fake accent which bothered me throughout the lecture(and throughout the year, trust me). And she spoke veerrryyyy slowly, which was annoying. But she’s good, really.

And then after a two hour break, we went for Computer Studies tutorial with JT(he wants us to call him JT). He’s very sporting and really young and really funny. Too bad he’s not my lecturer. He’s a relieve as my lecturer’s still in China. Anyway, tutorial was boring cause we learnt about the whole desktop. As in the My Documents, My Networks Places, How to Create A Shortcut etc. You know, the basic things. I didn’t pay attention. Was busy trying to not fall asleep. Haha.

Anyway, then JT recommended that we should all have a pendrive each and he started telling us how to save money to buy a pendrive that only costs RM 35.

JT : The cheapest pendrive costs about RM 35 only. If you all save RM 1 everyday, sure can buy after 35 days. But if you want to buy the expensive one and you don’t have money, don’t ask from me, I don’t have money. I am not that…what do you call that?!

Cerenna : Along..

JT : Ahh.I’m not that “lidah buaya” ah..

I love JT! He’s sooo funny! Broken English, broken BM. Seems he only learned them properly a couple of years ago.

Then, after an hour there, we headed to Economics. In front of the hall,in front of my lecture room in fact, I saw Anthony. He saw me and smiled. And I cringed.

Then, as I was walking into the room, I saw Anthony walking into another room.

Phew..

Anyway, the real Mr Anthony is quite funny too. He speaks perfect English (thank God) and he explained very well. Only I couldn’t concentrate because there were two ignorant, inconsiderate idiots making noise at the back and counter-attacking everything Mr Anthony was saying. Plus, there was another idiot who kept tapping her VERY long nails on the table, non-stop. Can you imagine it? Behind me, yakyakyakyakyak, two seats from me, taptaptaptap.

But since the class was too big. I didn’t hear him anyway. And so did a lot of others sitting at the back, which made them start to talk. But I just have to love with that for the next yr or so, eh?!

Lets see how long before I crack…

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This is just too funny to be kept to myself. I've been grinning and laughing like an idiot in public for the last 5 minutes that i think the guy beside me thinks i should be sent to Tg. Rambutan immediately. Just read..

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Hah?! Two entries in one day? Siti got nothing to do ah?

Hehe..

Just finished Public Speaking and Communication. And then Tiff said he wants to go the Internet Lab(which is very cold inside, i'm telling you!). And then Bee Bee overheard, and since the two of them very the Internet freaks, they went together-gether la. Since i pulak nothing to do, decided to join them.

Anytheway, Mr Kuru rocks! He's so funny. I was dreading PSC. Tengok-tengok i enjoyed myself. Looking forward to doing presentations for PSC.

Having fun here. Sure i miss home. But i'm coping. There was a time when i doubted my decision to come here. Can i cope with the surroundings?! Can i make new friends?! Can i bear the lectures and tutorials and groupworks?!

But i think i've overcome that.  Being away from home does build character you know. I've heard Gabby's speaking like a matured adult now and that she even impressed Ber's parents. I can't wait to see her!

You have to troubleshoot all yr problems by yourself. No more running off to your parents if someone hurts you. No more depending onyour parents to dish out money, to supervise your bank account. Somehow, it's all dumped right into your lap. It's only a question of handling it or not.

It's scary at first. But as days go by, you'll learn that it's not so bad after all. Especially when you have your friends around, it'll be fine. You know you'll do fine.

Can't wait for the semester break. Another 4 months to go. In the meantime, i'm going to enjoy myself and my life as much as i can. Whether you agree or not.

sacred_raven

If you are in search of the next best thing to read after The Da Vinci Code,

READ THE RULE OF FOUR!

How addictive is the book?!

I finished the last 15 chapters in 8 hours.

Yes, THAT addictive.

A really good book. Historical and all that. Like Da Vinci a bit la. Only i think this book's better. More complicated. More suspense.

Shit, I've to own the book. Volunteers?!

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Today, i went for an exercice..or three.

Not purposely. Think i so good meh?!

Had to exercice..my legs.

This morning, got on the MC bus. Was too sleepy so i told Pei Wen to alert me when the bus stops at PD. Then the bus stopped, looked for Pei Wen. Didn't see him. Thought he was still on the bus. Then the bus stopped at PA. Bee Bee and i got out, searched for Pei Wen. MIA. Messaged "the ever magnificent" Pei Wen, he said he's already at PD. Asked him how he got thr so fast? He got out in front of the Nissan showroom. Asked him why he didn't call us along? Answered, he thought i already got down. DEEEYYY! Ish, first exercise.

Then, after Computer Studies, went down 6 flight of stairs to get to the basement for Econs. Got lift, but too many people. Can't wait, because the classes were back to back. Exercise lagi.

Then, had to stayback until 6.30 pm because got English replacement. Had to do mind mapping. My luck, same group with Pei Wen. He bullied me like crazy. Dahlah very tired. When i accused him of bullying me, he denied all the way, and i smiled like a cheshire cat. And then when i asked him for his number(cause we have assignment to do together. Don't think otherwise)he started la.

Pei Wen : Wei, don't call me tonight ar?!

Me : Why? What if i want to ask you out for a drink? *putting on a very miang voice* "Pei Wen aah..Let's go down. Go Yum Cha! Can la!" *laughs*

Pei Wen : (took out his handphone) See, I'm switching it off, so you cant call me.

[Note to Pei Wen : You think i so desperate ah?! Peraaasssaaaannn! *bluek*]

After class, waited for the UTAR bus or MC bus. Some people said got bus at 6.45pm. Waited until 6.55 pm. Still no bus. In the end, Pei Wen suggested we walk. So walked and walked and walked. 1.5 km. Never in my life have i ever walked that far. See? I exercised! If i don't lose weight jugak...*sigh*

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To anyone who's interested in studying Psychology, here's something for you. If anyone asks you why you want to take Psychology and you are tired of giving the same, standardised answer (like to study human behaviour la, like to talk to people la etc), tell them this:

Monica : Why do you want to take up Psychology?

Balan : Cause i like to brainwash people.

Original. I like!

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 Second week of classes. Everyone's starting to show off their colours. No more looking shy and smiling discreetly at classmates. Everyone's more open now, which i very much approve.

So, like i said, since everyone's showing their true colours, Pei Wen also started showing his true colours also. He has been calling me Orang Kaya because he saw me bought all the text books required. I was too lazy to reprimand him and let him off with calling me that.

Stupid decision. He has been calling me Orang Kaya everywhere we go. So, i in turn am beginning to call him Pembuli because his mission (so he said) for the next one year(cause he's majoring in Chinese Studies and i, PR)is to torture and bully me.

Tsk.

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If i graduate without knowing a single word or even understanding a single word of mandarin, kill me.

Almost everyone speaks in Mandarin. Even when we are in groups, doing discussions, they tend to speak in Mandarin. I don't really mind cause sometimes i get to zone out and not pay attention. But so far, when i hang out with Bee Bee, Mei Ann, Kelvin, Zi Yun and Pei Wen, they will usually translate their conversations to me. Especially Pei Wen. He'll struggle trying to explain what they've been talking about in English or BM.But i usually ask him to speak in BM, cause he speaks bahasa baku and it's so nice to hear. But most of the time, when he wants to translate their conversation in his halting BM, i'll stop him. Kesian see him struggling to find the words. Lol.

But i did learn a few words which i haven't properly grasped yet. Like the other day when Pei Wen said i came from Tampoi. I thought Tampoi, Johor. Then, Bee Bee started laughing. And then she started explaining that "tampoi", if u translate it into Mandarin, it means something like an asylum.

Sheesh...